whale in a pipe
Monday, March 7, 2011
Rituals
Now, late at night, I can feel your rough skin against my cheek. The weight of your body pressed against mine. I bite the apple of your shoulder and can taste it on my tongue.
You poisoned yourself so you could teach me things about my body and things about yours.
Rituals that can only be learned in sleep.
b.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
the way face paint can do
the prints even change colors
they slowly turn blue
blueprints hug me
too tight i can't breathe
they even turn yellow
it chokes my belief
the yellow prints are fading
i choose to forget
i don't look in the mirror
it's too early yet
it will start all over
but for now i am free
of the blooming colors
i can't seem to flee
red prints decorate me
the way face paint can do
the prints even change colors
they slowly turn blue
p.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
i trekked across the desert
and swam through foreign seas
to get away from You
and be alone with me
but the further that i ran
the clearer i could see
that You were going nowhere
that You were still with me
every crevice that i found
wasn't dark enough to hide
the lies i put in front of me
the truth i put aside
and You came knocking on
the facades i put between
You promised me a love
i no longer could believe
so i bit the hand that fed me
and then recoiled from the blow
that i believed was coming
but instead You let me go
p.
The Invisible Field
This is where I wish I could go
When I want to get lost.
A field that looks like an ocean
Covered in fog.
But hidden beneath the cool damp blanket
Lies a sea of sand and grass.
He said, when I ran into the field,
My body collapsed into the air
Like a tiny implosion.
When I turned around,
He was gone too.
Staring straight at the spot where he stood before
I saw nothing but a pixilated white sheet.
We both knelt down.
Me, into crunchy sea grass
Him, on the sandy shore.
We crouched below the layer of clouds,
Huddled near the ground.
We looked into each other’s eyes
And then leapt up
To let the damp air hit our faces.
I came back to the invisible field the next night.
Holding the hand of a boy,
I was sure would follow me
Into the wet gray night.
But the field was gone,
And as I turned so was he.
b.
The Evolution of Touch
When our knees knock together
I know.
These bruises are proof,
The natural manifestation
Of what we share.
Every arm graze, shoulder touch,
A sign.
He knows.
I know.
Eventually these inadvertent touches
Will evolve,
From cellular soup,
Into walking talking fish.
Who will leave the sea
Ready for something new.
Not knowing what comes next.
A new limb, an extra fin, to undress you
From your scales.
To pour water on your gills
As you adjust to the air.
It will happen slow,
But when it does
We will know.
b.